The leadership drift: when you slowly become someone you never intended to be

There’s a quiet phenomenon that happens to many senior leaders

It doesn’t happen overnight. It doesn’t happen dramatically. And it doesn’t happen because of a single decision

It happens slowly, incrementally, and almost invisibly

You wake up one day and realise you’ve become someone you never intended to be

Not in a moral sense. Not in an ethical sense. But in a leadership identity sense:

  • You’re operating in ways that don’t feel like you

  • You’re making decisions from a place you don’t recognise

  • You’re carrying responsibilities that don’t align with your values

  • You’re reacting instead of leading

  • You’re surviving instead of shaping

This is the leadership drift. The gradual, unintentional shift away from the leader you set out to be

It happens to the most capable, most self aware, and most high performing leaders

Especially in environments that reward resilience over reflection, delivery over direction, and steadiness over self definition

How leadership drift begins

Leadership drift rarely starts with a crisis. It starts with small compromises:

  • You say yes to work you shouldn’t own

  • You absorb tension that isn’t yours

  • You adjust your tone to match the room

  • You soften your clarity to avoid conflict

  • You take on responsibilities because “it’s easier if I just do it”

  • You prioritise what’s urgent over what’s important

  • You make decisions based on what will keep things moving, not what will move things forward

None of these moments feel significant on their own, but over time they accumulate. Slowly, you drift away from:

  • Your core values

  • Your principles

  • Your leadership edge

  • Your strategic altitude

  • Your authentic voice

You don’t notice it at first, but you feel it. A quiet dissonance, a subtle misalignment, or a sense that you’re performing a version of leadership rather than inhabiting it

Why product and transformation leaders are especially vulnerable to drift

Your role sits in the most volatile, ambiguous, politically charged parts of the organisation. You’re constantly navigating:

  • Conflicting priorities

  • Leaders with different appetites for risk

  • Teams moving at different speeds

  • Decisions made without full context

  • Stakeholders who want progress without trade offs

  • Systems that weren’t designed to work together

This environment creates pressure to:

  • Smooth things over

  • Keep things moving

  • Absorb complexity

  • Protect teams

  • Manage emotional fallout

  • Translate misalignment

  • Hold everything and everyone together

And because you’re good at it, exceptional at it, the organisation leans on you for it

But this reliance comes with a cost

You start shaping yourself around the system’s needs instead of shaping the system around your leadership

You become the person who fills the gaps, not the person who defines the direction

This is how drift begins

The emotional cost: you feel like you’re losing yourself

Leadership drift doesn’t feel like burnout. It feels like erosion. You feel:

  • Less sharp

  • Less grounded

  • Less connected to your purpose

  • Less confident in your instincts

  • Less energised by your work

  • Less like the leader you know you are

You’re still performing. You’re still delivering. You’re still trusted. But internally, something feels off

You’re not leading from the core of who you are. You’re leading from a place of obligation, expectation, or habit

The disconnection is exhausting in a way that’s hard to articulate

The identity cost: you become a version of yourself that is optimised for the system and not optimised for your growth

When drift takes hold, your leadership identity becomes shaped by:

  • What the organisation needs from you

  • What others expect from you

  • What you’ve been historically good at

  • What keeps things stable

  • What avoids conflict

  • What maintains momentum

You become the leader who:

  • Fixes instead of shapes

  • Absorbs instead of influences

  • Reacts instead of reframes

  • Delivers instead of directs

  • Stabilises instead of strategises

This version of you is competent, respected, and valued. But it’s not your fullest expression of leadership

It’s a compressed version. One that fits the system, but not your potential

The opportunity cost: drift pulls you away from the work that would expand you

When you’re drifting, you lose access to:

  • Strategic conversations that require your altitude

  • Enterprise level decisions that need your judgment

  • Opportunities that would stretch your range

  • Work that aligns with your next level identity

  • Visibility that shifts how leaders perceive you

  • Moments that build your future, not just maintain your present

You’re busy, but not advancing. You’re valued, but not evolving. You’re essential, but not expanding

Drift keeps you in motion, but not in growth

How high impact leaders reverse the drift

They pause long enough to notice it

Drift thrives on speed. The first step is slowing down enough to ask:

  • “Is this the leader I want to be?”

  • “Is this decision aligned with my principles?”

  • “Am I leading from intention or from habit?”

  • “What part of me is making this choice? From fear, obligation, or clarity?”

Awareness interrupts the drift

They reconnect with the core of their leadership

This means returning to:

  • Your values

  • Your principles

  • Your instincts

  • Your strategic altitude

  • Your authentic voice

You remember who you are, and who you’ve become

They stop over functioning in ways that distort their leadership

This is the hardest shift. You stop:

  • Absorbing emotional labour

  • Carrying unowned work

  • Smoothing over misalignment

  • Protecting leaders from consequences

  • Taking responsibility for things outside your remit

You reclaim your boundaries

They re-anchor their leadership identity in the future, not the past

You start speaking and acting from the altitude you’re growing into. You say things like:

  • “Here’s the strategic pattern I’m seeing”

  • “Here’s the decision architecture we need”

  • “Here’s the enterprise level risk we’re not naming”

  • “Here’s the shift that will unlock value”

You show the organisation the leader you are now, not the one you drifted into

They choose alignment over accommodation

This is where drift reverses. You make decisions based on:

  • What’s true

  • What’s needed

  • What’s strategic

  • What’s aligned

  • What’s yours to own

Not what’s easiest. Not what’s expected. Not what keeps the peace

If you feel like you’re drifting, you’re not lost. You’re ready

Leadership drift isn’t a failure, it’s a signal. A sign that:

  • You’ve been operating in survival mode for too long

  • Your leadership identity is ready to evolve

  • You’re ready to lead from intention, not obligation

You’re not becoming someone you don’t recognise. You’re being called back to the leader you always were, and the leader you’re becoming

If you want to reverse the drift and lead from clarity, alignment, and strategic altitude, then let’s work on this together. Here are three ways:

  • Influencing for Impact: This practical 2-day workshop is for you if you want to influence a decision maker, influence a change in customer or colleague behaviour, or influence someone to buy something from you

  • Executive and Leadership Team Coaching: Work directly with Lai-Ling to problem solve for your specific situation in a confidential setting. This is for you if you want to develop and execute on a game plan that is 100% tailored to you

  • Leadership Development: Invest in the product and transformation leaders in your company with leadership development that is customised for their role. This is for you if you want your people to learn about people and politics

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